hai fairytale:))

Hola.
Ini aku, yang selalu ngebantah kalo kamu suruh makan.
Iya aku, yang ambekan sama kamu.

Aku 'masih' dan akan terus sayang sama kamu.
Aku juga 'masih' suka bohong sama diri aku sendiri.
Aku masih suka berpura-pura sama sekali ngga butuh kamu.
Aku yang masih dan akan terus tahu segala hal kecil tentang kamu tanpa perlu kamu beri tahu.

Mana?katanya mau stay buat aku......he he
Mana?katanya sayang aku.....he he
Mana?katanya mau care sama aku......he he
Apakah segala sesuatu harus seperti itu? Hanya manis di awal?

Jadi disini kesannya aku jahat banget gitu ya?
Aku yang egois, gamau tau tentang perasaan kamu?
He he he iyain aja.

Jadi sekarang, mau kamu gimana?
Kalo mau aku sih, kamu stay.
Tapi jangan deh, aku gamau egois.

Harus nih aku pergi?he he
Harus nih kita anggap bahwa kita gapernah kenal?he he
Harus nih kita saling menjauh?he he
Kalau memang harus, aku akan melakukannya.
Tapi yang perlu kamu tahu adalah:


Aku tidak pernah benar-benar membencimu.

Aku tidak pernah benar-benar pergi.

Aku hanya, berpura-pura.

Aku tidak hanya merindukan segala kenangan, aku juga akan merindukanmu.

Be better than before ya, i love you a lot of so much many more.
you're not just a phase in my life, you're into mine.

I'll always remember it was late afternoon

It lastest forever, and ending so soon

with love,

AZS

fool me

Hi there.

Remember me? Someone who likes to hurt you.
Yes, I'm selfish.
Yes, I'm childish.
Yes, I'm moody.
However, you still be the one for me.

But baby, can't you see that I loved you?
Can't you feel what I really feel?
I'm just lying to myself and a whole world.

It's still you
And always be you. Indeed.
All of my 'thoughts' are for you.

Am I still your precious angel? Because you're still my chosen one.
Does your hand still for me? I need it to hold me when I get mad. Indeed.
Show me your existence.
Show me what you really feel.
Prove me if you love me.
I need you, indeed.

I'm sorry for being your heartbreaker, I don't mean it.
The universe doesn't let you and me to be us anymore.
NO.
It's because I can't beat my ego.

Sorry for letting you come into my life.
Sorry for stay in yours for a while.
Sorry for letting this feeling growing up.
I'm just trying to not lying with myself and especially not lying with you.
But I can't.

I should hide all those feeling.
I should hide what I really feel.
I should go.
I should go, and make you hate me.
We're just strangers with all those memories.

Go out
Find your new fairytale, ups...I mean your new world.
Fyi, you're still the one I love. Indeed. Yes, actually.

AZS

A walk to remember

 It is too late for share, but i'm still awake and don't know what to do.
Yaps! Malam ini mau share sedikit ya tentang film yang kesukaanku:3
A walk to remember merupakan film yang diangkat dari sebuah novel karya Nicholas Sparks.

Film ini sekitar tahun 2002, aku sih tau film ini dari sepupu aku. Kenapa aku suka? Padahal film ini termasuk film sederhana yang gapake efek macem-macem kaya mortal instrument ataupun hunger games, ya aku suka karena cerita ini ga berat dan natural... Here we go yaa

Kalau dibandingin sama novelnya sih ceritanya agak beda ya, aku sendiri belum pernah baca novelnya, aku langsung nonton filmnya hehe. Berhubung aku tau cuma yang versi film, aku share yang versi filmnya aja ya:p ohiyaaaaa tokoh utama dalam film ini adalah: Jamie Sullivan yang diperankan sama Mandy Moore (iya, mandy moore yang suaranya badai banget ituloh:'3) dan Landon Carter yang diperankan sama Shane West (btw, mereka cocok banget). Aku nonton film ini dikamar sepupu aku, aku waktu itu nginep disana dan dia aku minta dia download a walk to remember dan sedihnya aku baru nonton film ini sekali:(..............*oke, ini gapenting.* semoga ingatan aku masih canggih ya haha-_-

Jadi, kalo gak salah ada orang yang mau masuk ke dalam gengnya Landon Carter, disini digambarin bahwa Landon adalah cowo populer, ganteng, dan keren pada masanya... Akhirnya, mereka mutusin buat ngerjain orang itu dan akhirnya orang yang mau masuk geng mereka malah beneran ngalamin kecelakaan gitu deh. ingkat cerita Landon Carter tuh di hukum gara-gara kejadian ini, dan dia mesti ikut teater. Ini deh awalnya dia deket sama Jamie Sullivan.

I couldn't tell you everypart in this movie, but let me tell you about my favorite parts.

1.) Saat teater Jamie nyanyi only hope, then............London kiss her lips. Itu sama sekali gak ada dalam skenario, disitu deh Landon mulai sadar kalo Jamie itu cantik, beneran cantik.

 

2.) Saat Jamie dikerjain sama temen-temennya Landon. Temen-temennya Landon tuh gasuka kalo Landon dan Jamie deket terus mereka nyebarin foto boops dengan wajahnya adalah wajah Jamie. Saat dikantin Jamie langsung shock gitu kalo dia udah dipermalukan sama temen-temennya Landon....dan saat Jamie mau pergi dari kantin dia nabrak Landon dan dipeluk sama Landon.....dan disitu Landon marah sama temen-temennya, dia belain Jamie di depan semua orang:'3




 3.) Jamie itu punya semacam wishlist dalam hidupnya, dan dia mau semua wishlist itu terkabul. Jamie mau berada di dua tempat dalam satu waktu. Landon akhirnya kasih apa yang Jamie mau, you know? Dia ngajak Jamie ke perbatasan........jenius sih kalo dipikir:'))) haha yaudah deh Jamie bisa berada dalam 2 tempat yang berbeda dalam satu waktu!:3

Jamie: You're acting like a crazy person, what's going on?

Landon: Right now, you're straddling the state line.

Jamie: [confused] Okay...

Landon: You're in two places at once.

4.) dalam wishlistnya Jamie, dia mau punya tatto tapiiiii ayahnya Jamie sama sekali gak ngizinin dia buat punya tatto. Akhirnya Landon kasih Jamie tatto yang gak permanen deh._. Disini Landon bener-bener keren deh, dia mau ngusahain apa aja cuma buat Jamie bahagia, dia udah sayang banget sama Jamie:"3





 5.) Pas Landon ngeyakinin Jamie kalo dia sayang banget sama Jamie......yaampun Landon adalah sosok pacar idaman!hahaha-_-v

Landon: I might kiss you.

Jamie: I might be bad at it.

Landon: That's not possible

Landon: Jamie, I love you.

Jamie: I told you not to fall in love with me

 


6.) Masih scene bahagia kok.....suka banget pas Jamie dan Landon duduk-duduk di taman malam hari dan nunggu bintang jatuh, mereka bawa teropong bintang gitu dan dalam wishlist Jamie someday, dia mau punya teropong yang perbesarannya lebih jelas.






 

7.) Ini scene paling sedih banget....saat mereka lagi jalan-jalan sore Jamie told  Landon that she got a leukimia:'( beneran deh saat di scene ini sedih banget banget banget.

Jamie: I'm sick.

Landon: I'll take you home. You'll be better tomorrow...

Jamie: No. No, Landon! I'm sick. I have leukemia.

Landon: No. You're 18. You - you're perfect.

Jamie: No. I found out two years ago and I've stopped responding to treatments.

Landon: So why didn't you tell me?

Jamie: The doctor said I should go on and live life normally as best I could. I - I didn't want anybody to be weird around me.

Landon: Including me?

Jamie: Especially you! You know, I was getting along with everything fine. I accepted it, and then you happened! I don't need a reason to be angry with God.

 



 8.) Landon berusaha minta bantuan sama ayahnya, ayahnya Landon itu seorang dokter tapi pas Landon jelasin penyakit Jamie.....ayahnya gabisa bantu. Akhirnya beberapa lama setelah Landon tau penyakit Jamie dia buat teropong bintang yang perbesarannya lebih jelas supaya Jamie bisa lihat bintang lebih jelas. Nah saat itu Jamie dateng deh minta maaf sama Landon....yaudahlah nonton aja gih part yang ini mesti banget ditonton:"

Landon: [upset] Are you scared?

Jamie: To death... [Landon still looks upset] Lighten up.

Landon: It's not funny.

Jamie: I'm scared of not being with you.

Landon: Oh baby, that'll never happen... I'll be here

 












9.) Aku suka juga scene yang mereka di balkon lagi nyobain teropong barunya Jamie yang Landon buat khusus:p dan disitu Landon ngelamar Jamie walaupun dia tau umur Jamie tinggal 3 bulan lagi yaampunT.T ohiya ini juga salah satu wishlistnya Jamie, dia mau nikah di gereja tempat ayah dan ibunya nikah.

Landon: Do you love me?
[she nods]

Landon: Will you do something for me, then?

Jamie: [smiles] Anything.

Landon: Will you marry me?
[Jamie smiles and kisses him]

 

Jamie: You know what I figured out today?
Landon: What?
Jamie: Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I had for myself. Like this journey never ends. Like you were sent to me because I'm sick. To help me through all this. You're my angel.” 

10.) Last.....di film diceritain kalo sehabis nikah Jamie meninggal dan Landon pindah untuk ngelanjutin studinya, dia mau jadi dokter...setelah dia jadi dokter dia balik lagi ke rumah (mantan) ayah mertuanya. Tapi, kalau di novel ceritanya berakhir cuma sampai mereka berdiri diatas altar gereja. Ternyata, nichole spark sengaja buat endingnya kita yang nentuin apakah Jamie meninggal atau dia tetap hidup.

Landon: I'm sorry Jamie never got her miracle.

Reverend Sullivan: She did. It was you.

 

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In short, kenapa aku suka sama film ini ya karena aku suka banget sama cara Landon buat Jamie bahagia. He did everything. Kalo nanti kalian punya pacar, ajak pacarnya nonton film ini ya!banyak sisi positif yang bisa diambil kok dari film ini:'p goodnight! ohiya, soundtrack film ini juga aduh wajib di download tuh hehe selamat menikmati a walk to remember! jangan ada yang nangis ya tapi:'p

Ohiya ini nih wishlistnya Jamie, dan congrats! Landon sudah memenuhinya:'3

If you were Landon Carter, I'd be your Jamie Sullivan. xx

xoxo,

AZS

Autumn&Spring.

"If you were an autumn, I'd be your spring"

I haven't seen autumn or summer yet, but I loved them..so much

When spring came, even the false spring, there were no problems except where to be happiest.
It is the sun shining on the rain and the rain falling on the sunshine... 
If spring lasted forever, I'd never have to say goodbye to when summer ended or when the fall leaves died
If spring lasted forever, road trips would too drive to the interstate of nowhere and get lost without a clue

Why do I love spring? Because spring comes after the cold one, spring bring the sun shines on you.
With the flowers blooming on the rocky coast, with the tune, flowers and life on the swing the kites flying high in the sky, with its string pulling and stretching.

Blooming when the spring comes! And let the sun shining after a long cold blue.
Spring just like a happiness, it comes after the cold one and after the storm.

 


 

 



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Autumn,
flowers has just fallen because it was holding on for more.
In Autumn I fell in love at first sight, I knew that everything was alright.
In Autumn there was that special dance, I knew our love will not have a chance.

The autumn wind and the autumn rain,
But they nod and bloom the while,
And when the wind and the rain are past
Look out with a quiet smile,
Read more at http://www.blackcatpoems.com/s/autumn_flowers.html#67tGibSdlLjUCxoA.99

In autumn, everything fall.
Flowers fall into the land, and I fall...into you
However, I'm not into you anymore
Autumn went away, the cold one has just began to live.

"What About Now"

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the stars
And make it to the dawn?
Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Every song has their own memorie(s), "what about now" remind me of autumn&summer.

I mean......remind me of you, goodnight people!xx

with love, 

AZS

The autumn wind and the autumn rain,
But they nod and bloom the while,
And when the wind and the rain are past
Look out with a quiet smile,
Read more at http://www.blackcatpoems.com/s/autumn_flowers.html#67tGibSdlLjUCxoA.99

The autumn wind and the autumn rain,
But they nod and bloom the while,
And when the wind and the rain are past
Look out with a quiet smile,
Read more at http://www.blackcatpoems.com/s/autumn_flowers.html#67tGibSdlLjUCxoA.99

The autumn wind and the autumn rain,
But they nod and bloom the while,
And when the wind and the rain are past
Look out with a quiet smile,
Read more at http://www.blackcatpoems.com/s/autumn_flowers.html#67tGibSdlLjUCxoA.99