Vanilla Story; Ignore.

So let’s ignore each other,
try to pretend the other person doesn’t exist.
But deep down,
we both know,
it wasn’t supposed to end like this.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; A thought she never think.

"I fell for your thoughts,
the way that you said my name,
how you made me speechless

I ache to be inside your mind,
hear the whisper of every thought,
get lost in your deepest desires

I want you,
lying next to me
caressing the soft curves of my face,
running your fingers to my cheek

I fell for you,
I ache for you,
I want you."

-a letter above the sky.

xx,

fancy vanilla

Vanilla Story; Risk.

the sun watches what she did,
but the moon knows all her secrets.
it was the simplest thing in the world,
she tiptoed across the line and kissed him.
and the world cracked open.

xx,

fancy vanilla

Vanilla Story; How it feels to be in love.

"Everybody has a chapter they don't read out loud.
I believe that when two people are in love,
you can see it in their eyes.
The way they look at each other, it's all there.

their eyes are full of admiration,
of attraction,
of undying feelings for each other.
their eyes twinkle,
their eyes are smiling.

Even if they didn't say a word,
there is an invisible thread connecting."

xx,

fancy vanilla

Vanilla Story; Craving.

"..we crave what we can't have"
she whispered quietly.
"I know.."
her friend answered carefully.
"you crave him in the most innocent form,
you crave to say goodnight,
and give him forehead kisses,
and to say that you adore him when he feels at his worst,
you crave to hug him;
a deep and warm hug,
you crave his arms;
a safest place you could ask for,
you crave him in ways where you just want to be next to him,
and nothing more or less."
her friend talked slowly.
"how could I?"
she asked.
but she realize, no one there to answer.
she didn't need an answer.
"it was a dream"
she whispered in silence when she wake up.

xx,

fancy vanilla

Vanilla Story; Both.

It's both a blessing,
and a curse
to feel everything
so deeply.

xx,

fancy vanilla

A lost constellation.

“...and then she knew,
that you could become homesick for people too.

because she was homesick,
for someone she had not yet met.

he was both everything she could ever want
and nothing she could ever have.”

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Left unsaid

John : “Give me an answer. Why? Why not?”
Savannah : “Because just hearing your voice, I would have changed my mind.”

-Dear John
some things are better left unsaid.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Under the same sky

“No matter where you are,
you will always be looking at the same moon as I am.”
-Dear John.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

How could?

“I miss the memories we’ll never have.”

-Ranata Suzuki

xx,

fancy vanilla.

02.09 - 05.02 AM

“The hours between 12am and 6am,
most of truth are spoken.

bare face,
heavier eyelids,
hoarseness.

the unspoken truth,
the unexpected one.

an empty silence,
drowning in thoughts.

then realizing,
a very bold line which can’t be crossed.

A night is so pure,
and clear.”

xx,

fancy vanilla.

tales of broken heart 3am #6

“Walk away now,
before it’s too late to recover.”

-late night thoughts.
3.15 am

xx,

fancy vanilla.

tales of broken heart 3am #5

“Some people write in an effort to find themselves,
Some of them write in hopes of finding someone,
Which one are you?”

-late night thoughts.
03.12 am

xx,

fancy vanilla.

tales of broken heart 3am #4

“I build my wall,
a tough one.
But your voice suddenly break them all.
And there is nothing I can do except letting your voice distract my mind and rebuild my wall.”

-late night thoughts.
03.09 am

xx,

fancy vanilla.

tales of broken heart 3am #3

“You have beautiful thoughts that I want to swim into,
and even if I drown,
I won’t ask you to save me.”

-late night thoughts.
3.08 am

xx,

fancy vanilla.

tales of broken heart 3am #2

“You and I are on the dead end road. There’s nothing we can’t do except painting this wall ahead us  with beautiful colors called memories.
No way will ever we break this wall.
So we go back and forth with the same straight road and until we’re exhausted too much to drawing the same absurdity,
or until I walk away and leave this forbidden love?

-late night thoughts.

03.04 am

xx,

fancy vanilla.

tales of broken heart 3am #1

“Our tale is as of the two seas. We’re bound to meet, but never to mix.”

-late night thoughts.
03.01 am

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Almost

“Almost.
Almost happened to us.
He almost be my home,
but I remember
there were many things we can’t force tho
deep down,
we want to try.” - she whispered, in silence.

Vanilla Story; Questions in silence.

Something weird,

I can’t find you through your words

Something strange,

I can’t find you through your voice

There was something,

tho you didn’t tell,
I knew

Take your time,

let me know,
we'll fix it

xx,

.
fancy vanilla