So this is how it feels

 I thought it was easy to let go

Turned out its hard..

We never see its coming

Suddenly hit us

I knew it wasn’t your fault 

I knew for sure how much you love us

I have nothing to say

Never imagine this come to us

It hurts so much

Even I hurt my palm with my nails to feel another pain

The pain of losing us indescribable 

It hurts from head to toe

I lost in pain

I want to hug you tight

Cry on your shoulder

Cursed the universe

I barely breathing 

We were at our best moment the day before

How could things change within a day

Tell me how to survive 

Where should I go

Tell me how to breath

2021

 Hi..

Been a while..

I thought 2021 would be nice, would be my wonderful year lol.

But thats life, right? End up with some plot twists.

I cursed him a lot last night, more than ever,

I put the blame on him,

But deep down, it was all my mistake to start this.. to trust this..

I owe my self the love that I freely give to him.

And this time,

I want to let go,

Let go of things I can't change,

Let go of our dreams,

This time,

I don't want to accept anything less.

Perhaps.. it was a sign

A sign that we couldn't make it no matter how hard we try

A sign that we're not meant to be

It was all clear, we just keep denying.

Deep down, we already know the truth.

One question ;

how could you take someone without any preparation?

I wonder..

So let's ignore each other

Try yo pretend the other person doesn't exist

Let it hurt, then let it go.

darkest place, feb 2021.

S.