Oct 20, 2017

HAPPY 4th BIRTHDAY FANCY VANILLA!

Hi (again),
almost 4 years ago I started to try this page.
I didn't have any idea this page could turn into something that really matters in my life.
As a writer with their books,
As a musician with their songs,
As an actor with their movies,
As me with my fancy vanilla.

Started with an introducing post (First!),
words for puppy love in high school even we made a reply series as a post (if I'm not mistaken) (Untuk kamu, bukan dia.),
tried to be a fashion blogger like this (Lovely Ice Cream) (lol this part was really funny),
wrote mini stories that I've never made the ending :'D that was the time when I was younger, I was escaping my self with books and movies. I remember that time I like Ilana Tan's season love story and that books made me had something with "seasons" especially (Autumn&Spring).
I read 3 of 4. Spring in London, Autumn in Paris, and Winter in Tokyo. I didn't read Summer in Seoul because that time I was really didn't like the things about South Korea (fool me I know, sorry huhu).
Winter in Tokyo made me write those dreams (Zettai ni shiawase ni suru kara) (I even forget what the meaning of those words),
talked about Kdrama (Reply 1988) and Movie (A Walk to Remember). Something that really interested me and had good plots; characters; and places ofcourse,
then I started to write the words, that turned into sentences (If Only) to express my feelings and pour thoughts in my mind
shared makeup and beauty things that actually unimportant since I'm not an expert such as (Blossom Doll Makeup Look)
shared a healthy life idea (Kurangi Nasi) because that time I was really want to have a skinny body lol,
tried my first lipstick swatches yes I tried this one (Review and Swatches Purbasari Matte Lipstick),
told about my lil trip experiences (Bali, 2017.) for the first time,
started to write my instagram's talk (softlens)
and still shared fashion things until now,

I witness many things in life, and this one. My one and only Fancy Vanilla be a part of it.
Thankyou for these past 4 years, I know this page unimportant things for some people but for me, this one is really matters.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FANCY VANILLA!
I wish we could pass this life together. So, someday when time flies and year changes I still can enjoy the moments.
Thankyou for being something in my life!
I do really love you, my Fancy Vanilla.

xx,

your one and only
AZS.

Oct 16, 2017

Tales of Broken Heart #1

The midnight phone calls
turned into forced conversations;
our photographs now only remind me
of what we used to have,
what we used to be.

It seems that
the harder I tried to keep you close
the further you went away;

the more I loved you
the harder it was for you to stay.

I held your hand,
you held my heart;
how could you be so cruel?

You told me that butterflies have left
and I guess I always knew
because all this time
I was watching you leave with them.

-renaisenancess

xx,

your lost universe.
Because sometimes, just sometimes,
loving someone means letting them go.