Like a fool.

I wish I didn’t come.

I wish I didn’t fall.

I wish I could turn back the time.

Maybe, my life would be easier and happier.

Or I wish, I could date president’s son for real lol.

You did nothing.

Someone said,

 “You did nothing.”

When all you ever did were giving your best.

Fading.

 “I am fading away slowly

and you aren’t even noticing.”

Pity.

She has grown so tired to pretend like everything’s fine.

She doesn’t even feel the excitement, while she’s counting down.

She pretend all her life are about fairytale, in fact all her life are nightmares.

She hide it for too long, to protect someone’s pride, and now even sleep doesn’t help.

She feel like the maps already torn and the wings I had already cut off.

She doesn’t know who is she anymore.

She lost, and it’s too late to realize.

So this is how it feels

 I thought it was easy to let go

Turned out its hard..

We never see its coming

Suddenly hit us

I knew it wasn’t your fault 

I knew for sure how much you love us

I have nothing to say

Never imagine this come to us

It hurts so much

Even I hurt my palm with my nails to feel another pain

The pain of losing us indescribable 

It hurts from head to toe

I lost in pain

I want to hug you tight

Cry on your shoulder

Cursed the universe

I barely breathing 

We were at our best moment the day before

How could things change within a day

Tell me how to survive 

Where should I go

Tell me how to breath

2021

 Hi..

Been a while..

I thought 2021 would be nice, would be my wonderful year lol.

But thats life, right? End up with some plot twists.

I cursed him a lot last night, more than ever,

I put the blame on him,

But deep down, it was all my mistake to start this.. to trust this..

I owe my self the love that I freely give to him.

And this time,

I want to let go,

Let go of things I can't change,

Let go of our dreams,

This time,

I don't want to accept anything less.

Perhaps.. it was a sign

A sign that we couldn't make it no matter how hard we try

A sign that we're not meant to be

It was all clear, we just keep denying.

Deep down, we already know the truth.

One question ;

how could you take someone without any preparation?

I wonder..

So let's ignore each other

Try yo pretend the other person doesn't exist

Let it hurt, then let it go.

darkest place, feb 2021.

S.

Supermoon

...and like the moon,
we must go through
phases of emptiness
to feel full again

:)
:))

xx,

supermoon.