Vulnerable

Not all loss,
is a loss.

So close..
yet so far.

A notes to my self

Hold on there,
A little bit longer..

Soon,
things gonna be fine

Soon,
we'll get something greater than our expectation

Soon,
we'll know how worth it was

Hold on,
I'm here

as your only lover
as your eternal spirit
as your daily diary

I'm here,
because I am; yourself.

xx,

the one who really need a space to escape.

Effortlessly Feminine

Something simple & stunning.

Army, just because I'm an Army.

lol.

xx,

Syanindita.

Pattern Scarf Ideas

Hi!
Going to escape for a while, and tell you my lil ideas about pattern scarf.

Here we go!

1.) Satin Pattern Scarf will always be a good choice to your formal occasions!

2.) Voal Pattern Scarf to the rescue!

3.) Polycotton Pattern Scarf is a good idea for daily!

Which one do you like?

xx,

Syanindita.

Why don't we?

We never "talk" anymore,
there is something missing;
something has changed though neither of us talks about it.

We pretend and we are good at it.
I often wonder if we're still at the same thought?
or if I was just meant to be there, in your heart for a brief space of time?

We knew, we're exhausted to fix things up over and over again
Like we always did in the past few years
I didn't blame you for anything,
I blame my self, as you always did.
Though you always ended up saying that was me,
the one who didn't want to be blamed.

We're confused and lost, yet I dare not ask a question whose answer might break my heart.
We knew we might need our own space,
but we never admit and pretend it was nothing,
until it comes,
the day we didn't trust each other
but we keep pretending.

To be honest,
It was the confusion that I've drown it
I'm exhausted.
It consumes me.

Why don't we realize?
I knew you're going to read this.

xx,

Syanindita.

What is that?

You know what love really is?
Well, maybe..
Just maybe..
It's about being caring, waiting, trusting, and understanding.

Love isn't black or white; it's not just about loving.
Well maybe..
Just maybe..
It's about surpassing every day of the relationshio with utmost care, waiting, trust, and being understandable.
Love without having any doubts and thinking about what the future may hold.

Once again, maybe..
Just maybe..
Love isn't just a matter of feeling.
It's matter of decision even when circumstance change.

If it's not,
then it's not love
..it's just your obsession to keep them

xx,

Syanindita.

Late night thoughts #2

It was the first time you came to my dream

with your greeting message that you said to me

It was nice to be your morning thoughts

You came again, in the crowded place in my dream

I tried to reach you and I still caught you over millions people

we were in the super crowded cinema, finally you stood right next to me

held my hand, tightly

It was nice to standing by your side

There you go again, in scariest place I've ever seen

I saw you, but you didn't

you keep doing silly things and I keep laughing

It was nice to see your silly side

You came back, in a little time

Picked me up in the middle of the night

and we went to somewhere

It was nice to spending my night with you

Yes, you again

I forgot what we did

but still

It was nice to see you

Dream is the best place to me,

seeing you there

no one knows

even you

Should we meet again, tonight?

..at least I could see you the way I wanted to

xx,

Syanindita

Late night thoughts #1

People wonder if that was something between us
because they hear the affection in my voice
and they notice how tense lines on my face turn soft

I keep telling them about things you don't like
or about something you did in your life
I keep  telling them when I talked to you
they know exactly that I remember you

I don't blame them for seeing the truth I've been trying to hide
because I am here
and you are there

..but life doesn't end every night
nor when you're out of my sight.

xx,

Syanindita