Vanilla Story; Kind of foolishness (3)

you’re a salt

he’s a wound

but darling

you can’t heal, 

you put so much pain,

too much pain within it

instead of salt,

he needs medicine.

xx,

fancy vanilla

Vanilla Story; Kind of foolishness (2)

instead of being a water,

she is being a fire

xx,

fancy vanilla

Vanilla Story; Kind of foolishness

she wanted to be a shelter

she wanted to be a home

she wanted to be a haven

but darling,

let me tell you; you failed

it never worked

you’re not good enough 

to be everything you always wanted

how could you be a shelter without a wide roof?

how could you be a home without a strong wall?

how could you be a haven without having anything to calming? to protect? to offer?

how could you protect someone while you can’t even protect yourself?

you’re too mess

don’t even try to think about 

being a home, shelter, or haven

you’re not protecting, you’re destroying

xx,

fancy vanilla

Vanilla Story; Unprepared.

A pain through the veins.
Aching.
Taste all the words that have been saying.
But, have I told you that;
It was hard to handle, but definitely worth it.

xx,

Fancy Vanilla.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FANCY VANILLA!

xx,

Syanindita

MY LOVE, TOTORO!

"Everybody, try laughing. Then whatever scares you will go away." - My Neighbor Totoro

I've met Totoro!
Twice!

I need more Totoro :(
Could you tell me where I can find Totoro, please?:(

Outer Ideas

Don't know what to wear?
Outer to the rescue!

xx,

Syanindita.

Vanilla Story; Quotation.

"Let's see if the two lines meet by destiny. As well as the ocean.
I wanna know what kind of lines that we have.
Fantastic. I draw the line, you draw the wall.

We fall, we dive. I hold you.
How should be the best way I tell you that this is real.
How can you leave the warmth, love, joy, a shelter from rain and sun where you can cry on, and everything you like about home? Your home is us.

Why it has to be you?
Why it has to be me? Because it has to be you. Because it has to be us. Because you know why it has to be me. You are sure. Again, you have the answer. That you have the answer completing each feeling. More than late night thoughts. The full day-everyday answer. And it has to be me, you, us. Please do not deny. Please give your heart an air it needs. Put us alive.

..and my shoulder is going to be your door to every part of me that is belongs to you."

xx,

fancy vanilla.

verb-noun-adv. of time.

busy, udon, sleep, moon.

castle land, red, pretzel, dance.

traffic, time, punch, kiss.

birthday night.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

verb-noun-adv. of time.

day, keds, jeans, sun.
flowers, road, mask, bus.
wind, picture, rain, cable car.
deep kiss, warm hug, shelter, fog.
hot tea, breeze, wet, forehead.
pillow neck night.

xx,

famcy vanilla.

verb-noun-adv. of time.

hills, cold, ark, wind.
lights, stars, hug, walk.
kiss, shy, horse, story.
22nd century, queen, cap, kids.
mind, fragrance, graveyard, universe.
explode, drown, talk, yellow.
sad night.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

verb-noun-adv. of time.

coffee shop, noodle, wind, cry, excited.
protect, caught, forehead, beg.
starring, focus, leave, true, hate.
forgotten night.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

verb-noun-adv. of time.

traffic, lights, car, backseat, white clouds.

truth, hands, heartbeat, eyes, handkiss.

unexpected kiss, hug, shoulder, shaking.

selfie, peace style, fragrance.

super night.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Review Avione Liquid Lipstick

Boom!

Hi semuaaaa!

Aku mau bahas Avione Liquid Lipstick ah~

Nah kebetulan aku ga terlalu suka pakai lipstick apalagi liquid lipstick, aku prefer liptint tapiii liquid lipstick ini ternyata nyaman deh. Liquid lipsticknya ga kering yang sampai cracking, masih aman banget dipakai makan (tapi jangan santan yaa).

Awal pakai sama sekali ngga lengket kaya liquid lipstick lain dan cukup matte hasil akhirnya.

Well, kalau untuk para penggemar liquid lipstick sih wajib coba ini.

Packagingnya simple dan ga terlihat murahan hihi padahal harganya cukup affordable kok!

Jadi, daripada kalian penasaran silahkan langsung dibeli!! Masih banyak shades warna lainnya, kalau aku pilih yang pink soft gitu aja huehehe.

xx,

Syanindita.

Vanilla Story; Library.

“His mind was a library,
I wanted to read all the books
..until I realize they were about her.”

-phosphenous

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; Ending.

“...why? Tell me”
He asked her curiously.
“Because just hearing your voice I could have changed my mind”
She answered quietly.
“Take care, I love you..”
Finally he gave up.
“Take care, thankyou..”
Then they parted away.

“If I had one wish
you’d stay, forever..”
She whispers in silence.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; I want you.

“It was until our eyes met and we held each other’s gaze for a while.
Your lips against mine, softly.
My head drowning in your wide shoulder.
Those fingers storking my cheek and chin, slowly.

Since then,
I start to want a lot of things.
I want our bones to melt together.
I want to sniff your smell, the most intoxicating smell I ever known.
I want to keep tasting your mouth; like hunger kept too long and desire kept in shadows given light for the first time.
I want to feel the dawn sky with the color of your eyes.
I want to hug you tight until we fall asleep.
I want to give my shoulder as your best place to escape when things get rough.
I want you to hold my hand with your thumb on my knuckles.
I want to fall asleep to the sound of your tender voice.

I want you to devour me.
Make me a part of you.
Let me live in you.

I feel the end is getting near.
Would time be so kind to slow?
I want you, so bad.”

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; Wolf and moon

“Maybe the wolf is in love with the moon,
and each month it cries for a love it will never touch.”

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; Heartless.

...but darling,
in the end
you only have yourself
the only person you can rely on is, yourself.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; How.

“And here it comes, the pain I’ve been avoiding.
It comes rushing in big waves and just may drown me.
It’s ready to pull me under and take the breath straight from my lungs.
And this time, I’m not sure how to swim safely.”

Excerpt a book I will never write #28

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; Letter to a sea.

"Our time and space was beautiful,
even if it has ended,
even if it will never be the same; the universe is a strange place.
In the end,
I'm just thankful to have shared anything with you,
for any time
at all."

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; Life.

At some point,
you just have to let go of
what you thought should happen
and live in what is happening.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; Silence.

"What are you tired of hearing about?"
"Silence."
"Silence isn't empty, it's full of anwers."

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; Drowning.

You're like a drug

I should leave you alone,

but I want more.

I'm drowning

to your hands,

and the way they hold mine

to you fingers,

and the way it fits mine

to your lips,

and the way they took my breath away

to your hug,

and the way they keep me warm

to your smell,

and the way it fills me

to your touch,

and the way they stole my sanity

I'm drowning

I crave you so deep

the ocean would be jealous

I keep coming back

to a quiet night.

when your mouth against mine

my breathing slowed

my heart raced

I was trembled; watching your eyes and the way you looked at me.

I was entranced; seeing your smile and the way you smiled at me.

You're my addiction

that I don't know how to stop

and I wish I don't even need to stop

but this dream,

is too good to be true.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; Fall.

Maybe it was  your laugh,
or your eyes,
or your voice,
it could've been your smile,
or your thoughts,
or your personality.
Whatever it was,
it made me fall
pretty damn hard.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; Trembled.

"he placed his hands
on my mind
before reaching
for my waist
my hips
or my lips."
-rupi kaur

xx,

fancy vanila.

Vanilla Story; Argument.

Meganthropus; definitely animal!
No, it was human.
Animal wins.
Half chinese? well-can't be accepted.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; Thoughts of memory.

"Memory is like a box,

cart or anything where it keeps something that has occured and selected,

we can pull the box from it shelf,

we can see anything inside that box whenever we want and put it back after that.

Memory is everything,

it is our experience,

our reference,

our lesson,

there.

Love, life, pain, and all taste that color your world.

So no point we try to ease the memory,

Memory is joy."

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; Ignore.

So let’s ignore each other,
try to pretend the other person doesn’t exist.
But deep down,
we both know,
it wasn’t supposed to end like this.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Vanilla Story; A thought she never think.

"I fell for your thoughts,
the way that you said my name,
how you made me speechless

I ache to be inside your mind,
hear the whisper of every thought,
get lost in your deepest desires

I want you,
lying next to me
caressing the soft curves of my face,
running your fingers to my cheek

I fell for you,
I ache for you,
I want you."

-a letter above the sky.

xx,

fancy vanilla

Vanilla Story; Risk.

the sun watches what she did,
but the moon knows all her secrets.
it was the simplest thing in the world,
she tiptoed across the line and kissed him.
and the world cracked open.

xx,

fancy vanilla

Vanilla Story; How it feels to be in love.

"Everybody has a chapter they don't read out loud.
I believe that when two people are in love,
you can see it in their eyes.
The way they look at each other, it's all there.

their eyes are full of admiration,
of attraction,
of undying feelings for each other.
their eyes twinkle,
their eyes are smiling.

Even if they didn't say a word,
there is an invisible thread connecting."

xx,

fancy vanilla

Vanilla Story; Craving.

"..we crave what we can't have"
she whispered quietly.
"I know.."
her friend answered carefully.
"you crave him in the most innocent form,
you crave to say goodnight,
and give him forehead kisses,
and to say that you adore him when he feels at his worst,
you crave to hug him;
a deep and warm hug,
you crave his arms;
a safest place you could ask for,
you crave him in ways where you just want to be next to him,
and nothing more or less."
her friend talked slowly.
"how could I?"
she asked.
but she realize, no one there to answer.
she didn't need an answer.
"it was a dream"
she whispered in silence when she wake up.

xx,

fancy vanilla

Vanilla Story; Both.

It's both a blessing,
and a curse
to feel everything
so deeply.

xx,

fancy vanilla

A lost constellation.

“...and then she knew,
that you could become homesick for people too.

because she was homesick,
for someone she had not yet met.

he was both everything she could ever want
and nothing she could ever have.”

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Left unsaid

John : “Give me an answer. Why? Why not?”
Savannah : “Because just hearing your voice, I would have changed my mind.”

-Dear John
some things are better left unsaid.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Under the same sky

“No matter where you are,
you will always be looking at the same moon as I am.”
-Dear John.

xx,

fancy vanilla.

How could?

“I miss the memories we’ll never have.”

-Ranata Suzuki

xx,

fancy vanilla.

02.09 - 05.02 AM

“The hours between 12am and 6am,
most of truth are spoken.

bare face,
heavier eyelids,
hoarseness.

the unspoken truth,
the unexpected one.

an empty silence,
drowning in thoughts.

then realizing,
a very bold line which can’t be crossed.

A night is so pure,
and clear.”

xx,

fancy vanilla.

tales of broken heart 3am #6

“Walk away now,
before it’s too late to recover.”

-late night thoughts.
3.15 am

xx,

fancy vanilla.

tales of broken heart 3am #5

“Some people write in an effort to find themselves,
Some of them write in hopes of finding someone,
Which one are you?”

-late night thoughts.
03.12 am

xx,

fancy vanilla.

tales of broken heart 3am #4

“I build my wall,
a tough one.
But your voice suddenly break them all.
And there is nothing I can do except letting your voice distract my mind and rebuild my wall.”

-late night thoughts.
03.09 am

xx,

fancy vanilla.

tales of broken heart 3am #3

“You have beautiful thoughts that I want to swim into,
and even if I drown,
I won’t ask you to save me.”

-late night thoughts.
3.08 am

xx,

fancy vanilla.

tales of broken heart 3am #2

“You and I are on the dead end road. There’s nothing we can’t do except painting this wall ahead us  with beautiful colors called memories.
No way will ever we break this wall.
So we go back and forth with the same straight road and until we’re exhausted too much to drawing the same absurdity,
or until I walk away and leave this forbidden love?

-late night thoughts.

03.04 am

xx,

fancy vanilla.

tales of broken heart 3am #1

“Our tale is as of the two seas. We’re bound to meet, but never to mix.”

-late night thoughts.
03.01 am

xx,

fancy vanilla.

Almost

“Almost.
Almost happened to us.
He almost be my home,
but I remember
there were many things we can’t force tho
deep down,
we want to try.” - she whispered, in silence.

Vanilla Story; Questions in silence.

Something weird,

I can’t find you through your words

Something strange,

I can’t find you through your voice

There was something,

tho you didn’t tell,
I knew

Take your time,

let me know,
we'll fix it

xx,

.
fancy vanilla

Vulnerable

Not all loss,
is a loss.

So close..
yet so far.

A notes to my self

Hold on there,
A little bit longer..

Soon,
things gonna be fine

Soon,
we'll get something greater than our expectation

Soon,
we'll know how worth it was

Hold on,
I'm here

as your only lover
as your eternal spirit
as your daily diary

I'm here,
because I am; yourself.

xx,

the one who really need a space to escape.

Effortlessly Feminine

Something simple & stunning.

Army, just because I'm an Army.

lol.

xx,

Syanindita.

Pattern Scarf Ideas

Hi!
Going to escape for a while, and tell you my lil ideas about pattern scarf.

Here we go!

1.) Satin Pattern Scarf will always be a good choice to your formal occasions!

2.) Voal Pattern Scarf to the rescue!

3.) Polycotton Pattern Scarf is a good idea for daily!

Which one do you like?

xx,

Syanindita.

Why don't we?

We never "talk" anymore,
there is something missing;
something has changed though neither of us talks about it.

We pretend and we are good at it.
I often wonder if we're still at the same thought?
or if I was just meant to be there, in your heart for a brief space of time?

We knew, we're exhausted to fix things up over and over again
Like we always did in the past few years
I didn't blame you for anything,
I blame my self, as you always did.
Though you always ended up saying that was me,
the one who didn't want to be blamed.

We're confused and lost, yet I dare not ask a question whose answer might break my heart.
We knew we might need our own space,
but we never admit and pretend it was nothing,
until it comes,
the day we didn't trust each other
but we keep pretending.

To be honest,
It was the confusion that I've drown it
I'm exhausted.
It consumes me.

Why don't we realize?
I knew you're going to read this.

xx,

Syanindita.

What is that?

You know what love really is?
Well, maybe..
Just maybe..
It's about being caring, waiting, trusting, and understanding.

Love isn't black or white; it's not just about loving.
Well maybe..
Just maybe..
It's about surpassing every day of the relationshio with utmost care, waiting, trust, and being understandable.
Love without having any doubts and thinking about what the future may hold.

Once again, maybe..
Just maybe..
Love isn't just a matter of feeling.
It's matter of decision even when circumstance change.

If it's not,
then it's not love
..it's just your obsession to keep them

xx,

Syanindita.

Late night thoughts #2

It was the first time you came to my dream

with your greeting message that you said to me

It was nice to be your morning thoughts

You came again, in the crowded place in my dream

I tried to reach you and I still caught you over millions people

we were in the super crowded cinema, finally you stood right next to me

held my hand, tightly

It was nice to standing by your side

There you go again, in scariest place I've ever seen

I saw you, but you didn't

you keep doing silly things and I keep laughing

It was nice to see your silly side

You came back, in a little time

Picked me up in the middle of the night

and we went to somewhere

It was nice to spending my night with you

Yes, you again

I forgot what we did

but still

It was nice to see you

Dream is the best place to me,

seeing you there

no one knows

even you

Should we meet again, tonight?

..at least I could see you the way I wanted to

xx,

Syanindita

Late night thoughts #1

People wonder if that was something between us
because they hear the affection in my voice
and they notice how tense lines on my face turn soft

I keep telling them about things you don't like
or about something you did in your life
I keep  telling them when I talked to you
they know exactly that I remember you

I don't blame them for seeing the truth I've been trying to hide
because I am here
and you are there

..but life doesn't end every night
nor when you're out of my sight.

xx,

Syanindita

We know, for sure

It's funny how universe works.

Sometimes the most expected thing doesn't come for real,

on the other hand,

The most unexpected thing comes directly without even realizing when it comes.

We got things that we need,

not what we want.

xx,

Syanindita.

7 days of you

Day 1

I got something I didn't expected, you.

Day 2

I got my first 'good morning' thing-in my dream-from you.

Day 3

I woke up at 3am and my first thought was you.

Day 4

It was obvious, and you knew that I miss you.

Day 5

I got 'good morning' thing in real life, from you.

Day 6

It seems so real that both of us went to cinema, in my dream it was you.

Day 7

I got my final-in the end people leave us behind-you did it too.

xx,

Syanindita

Proud of Batik Madura & Batik Tulungagung

Akhir-akhir ini aku lagi hobi banget pake batik, apalagi lagi banyak nikahan nih.

Nah sebagai anak muda Indonesia harusnya memang kita selalu melestarikan budaya berbatik dimanapun dong! 

Batik memiliki berbagai macam kreasi biasanya kota-kota di Jawa selalu memiliki nama batiknya masing-masing. 

Kali ini aku mau bahas sedikit tentang #batikindonesia. 

Well, yang mau aku bahas adalah motif Batik Madura & Batik Tulungagung:

1. Batik Madura

Batik tulis Madura memang cukup dikenal dengan karakter yang kuat, dicirikan oleh warna-warna yang berani (merah, kuning, hijau). Namun banyak juga kok sebetulnya warna-warna kalem yang cocok untuk anak muda beraktivitas. Batik Madura termasuk Batik yang paling di minati oleh mancanegara loh!

Berikut beberapa referensi motif batik Madura:

2. Batik Tulungagung

Sebenarnya motif batik khas tulungagung ini tidak berbeda jauh dengan batik lain yang berasal dari pulau jawa. Batik Tulungagng cenderung berwarna hitam dan coklat yang dijadikan ciri dan banyak di pakai, bisa juga warna soft gelap. Batik tulungagung sendiri sering menamai motif mereka dengan desa-desa batik di tulungagung.

Berikut beberapa referensi motif batik Tulungagung:

             

Kesimpulannya adalah Mau pilih #batikmadura ataupun #batiktulungagung sama-sama menarik dengan ciri khasnya masing-masing kok!

Oh ya, buat yang pengen beli dan gak tau beli dimana bisa di cek instagramnya @rizmaco untuk kepoin koleksi #jualbatik mereka hihi

Nahhhh… kalo foto terakhir yang dibawah ini adalah batik koleksi aku, yaitu Batik Madura. Bikin keliatan makin cantik kan:D  makanya ayo pakai #batikindonesia dooong hueheee

 Kalo ini detailnya :

Jadi, udah tau mau beli batik yang gimana?;p

Dandan yang cantik pas kondangan yaah, siapa tau nemu jodoh;p

See you!

xx,

Syanin