Aug 31, 2014

Yesterday

I just woke up, and was going to clean up my house (especially, my room) I walked into bathroom and found that someone's car has just arrived. Your car. Well, honestly I didn't know what to do. Panic. How could you came? I didn't even reply your text. So, I just washed my face and brushed my teeth. Then, I met you eventough I didn't really want to.
We sat on our historical sofa, well....I was quiet because you made my whole heart beat faster than before, I was thinking what am I supposed to do?
Just a hug, and you broke my walls. As easy as that. As easy as you think.
And for a thousand times, again and again, I made an excuse for my self. What? Excuse? Yea, I said to my self.
"Please, just for today, let it be. Just today. This is the last, please." yea I know I've said it for a million times, but how could I ignore my fav place? That shoulder which is belongs to me.
And you destroyed those walls, successfully.
I turned into "me" the one who loves you wholeheartedly.
I took a bath, we talked about many random things, you said yesterday was your day, just for yesterday. And I made those excuses for my self, you won.
What was my fav part? We took many super-weird&silly&annoying&cute-photos. (I saved it:'p)
Then I begged you to go to somewhere, we went to some of my fav places, we drove a road, we listened maroon5's songs and we sang it together. Mcd's. Drive thru. Ate it in your car, and those memorable things I should forget but I just can't.
After that you took me to somewhere, you bought me a bucket of flowers. Red&White Roses.
And we went to my house, you spent your 14hours with me, you said that was your record.
And I should have to realize that day was over, our day was over. There is no more us.
Well, you already gone with the wind, you already gone with the time, and now I'm standing up for my self, rebuild the walls.
Thankyou.


P.S : Take care yourself, I'll always support you.

truly yours,

AZS

Aug 5, 2014

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GOOOOOOOD TELL ME THE REASONS
I'M LOST.....................
REALLY
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No matter what

No matter how hard I explain it.
No matter how hard I think about it.
No matter how hard it would be.
It just don't change anything.
I should have through this, no matter how hard it is.


AZS