So this is how it feels

 I thought it was easy to let go

Turned out its hard..

We never see its coming

Suddenly hit us

I knew it wasn’t your fault 

I knew for sure how much you love us

I have nothing to say

Never imagine this come to us

It hurts so much

Even I hurt my palm with my nails to feel another pain

The pain of losing us indescribable 

It hurts from head to toe

I lost in pain

I want to hug you tight

Cry on your shoulder

Cursed the universe

I barely breathing 

We were at our best moment the day before

How could things change within a day

Tell me how to survive 

Where should I go

Tell me how to breath

2021

 Hi..

Been a while..

I thought 2021 would be nice, would be my wonderful year lol.

But thats life, right? End up with some plot twists.

I cursed him a lot last night, more than ever,

I put the blame on him,

But deep down, it was all my mistake to start this.. to trust this..

I owe my self the love that I freely give to him.

And this time,

I want to let go,

Let go of things I can't change,

Let go of our dreams,

This time,

I don't want to accept anything less.

Perhaps.. it was a sign

A sign that we couldn't make it no matter how hard we try

A sign that we're not meant to be

It was all clear, we just keep denying.

Deep down, we already know the truth.

One question ;

how could you take someone without any preparation?

I wonder..

So let's ignore each other

Try yo pretend the other person doesn't exist

Let it hurt, then let it go.

darkest place, feb 2021.

S.

Supermoon

...and like the moon,
we must go through
phases of emptiness
to feel full again

:)
:))

xx,

supermoon.

Happiness?

People said,
“Don’t trust people easily”

But sometimes, we just ignore it.
We put trust on someone so deep
We give our heart to them
We put our happiness on them

We forget
We can’t put our happiness in other people’s hands
You know why?
Because they’ll drop it
They will easily drop it

xx,

another side of happiness

Say it louder

“There is a difference between giving up and knowing when you have had enough.”

-S.

Shall we?

Oh, hi!

I thought, universe has been doing a great job?
Cut the distance
Grant the presence

Oh, hi!
We forget
Its you

Grumbling all the time
Sticking at your lowest point
I thought, I was giving my other luck?

Oh, hi!
We forget
Its you

Faking is your first name
Complaining is your middle name
Suffering is your last name

You came this far, yet you always bring the bad luck.

Come here,
I give you little words;

If its too hard to be with me,
We can just stop
You can just go


-S.

Amnesia.

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia and forget about the stupid little things.
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you and the memories I never can escape.
Cause I’m not fine at all.