Lie to me

“...now I wish we’d never met
cause you’re too hard to forget.”

Where are you

These past few days I keep coming back to our memories
I close my eyes, there you are
Throwing your lame jokes,
Laughing with your best lips
Talking about many things, because no one can be your listener like I did

These past few days
I miss you, a lot
I do

How..

“When did everything get so screwed up?
This isn’t how it’s supposed to be.
I don’t know who I am anymore..”

Rewrite the stars

You know I want you
It's not a secret I try to hide
I know you want me
So don't keep saying our hands are tied
You claim it's not in the cards
Fate is pulling you miles away
And out of reach from me
But you're here in my heart
So who can stop me if I decide
That you're my destiny?

What if we rewrite the stars?
Say you were made to be mine
Nothing could keep us apart
You'd be the one I was meant to find
It's up to you, and it's up to me
No one can say what we get to be
So why don't we rewrite the stars?
Maybe the world could be ours
Tonight

You think it's easy
You think I don't want to run to you
But there are mountains
And there are doors that we can't walk through
I know you're wondering why
Because we're able to be
Just you and me
Within these walls
But when we go outside
You're going to wake up and see that it was hopeless after all

No one can rewrite the stars
How can you say you'll be mine?
Everything keeps us apart
And I'm not the one you were meant to find
It's not up to you
It's not up to me
When everyone tells us what we can be
How can we rewrite the stars?
Say that the world can be ours
Tonight

All I want is to fly with you
All I want is to fall with you
So just give me all of you

It feels impossible (it's not impossible)
Is it impossible?

Say that it's possible

You know I want you
It's not a secret I try to hide
But I can't have you
We're bound to break and my hands are tied

The art of crying

“why do you keep crying?” her friend replied.

“to tell my self that everything’s gonna be fine after this..”she gasped.

“he doesn’t even care, he’s not gonna be here.
he has his own life, yours too.
while you’re here crying yourself to sleep, crying until drop
maybe, he’s there enjoying his life, build new conversation everyday, laugh to his new friends..
maybe, you don’t even cross his mind, he doesn’t love you as much as you think.
what’s the point? you still cry in your empty room, you cry whenever you miss him” her friend keep telling the truth.

“how could you say that?” she asked.

“you don’t give up on someone you love, you don’t let go of them easily.” her friend replied.

“I’m the one who give up on us..” she whispered.

“then, he doesn’t love you.
if you’re the one who give up you’re not gonna be here, crying yourself to sleep, keep calling his name, keep telling yourself that you miss him.
you’re just gonna give up and gone, like he did.
or at least, if he loves you he won’t let you go, he will protect you, he will try everything he can just to keep you, don’t be stupid..
you’re not the one he wanted, stop crying.” her friend explained.

“let me cry until I can’t remember the way he loved me,
until I can’t remember things we did,
until I feel nothing at all whenever I see something related to him,
when I don’t even cry whenever I miss him and I remember us, that finally I can tell my self that he doesn’t love me as much as you said, or perhaps he doesn’t love me at all” she left with her swollen eyes.

Go on

“..you are going to be okay”
he replied.

The worst decision ever. See? You take the risk. You lose. You destroy us. “you are going to be okay” you said. In fact, nothing left. Bolder line, further distance, time difference, unstable, vulnerable. You know, it wasn’t supposed to end like this. This time, I blame you. Take your risk. You lose me, you lose us. You’ll see, I’m going to be okay as you said.

-Vanilla

A place full of sh*t

Since the day you left,
I just realized..
It was a disaster.

Since the day you left,
I just realized..
It destroyed us.

Since the day you left,
I just realized..
It wasn’t supposed to end like this.

Unstable.
Vulnerable.
You’re gone too soon,
to a place full of sh*t.

I give up,
to a place full of sh*t
to those empty promises
to those unreachable future
to us.

I,
give up on us.
Wishing you get a lot of happiness in a place full of sh*t, in your place.

-Vanilla.